OCD & P90X
I have diagnosed myself with OCD. I know that I probably don't actually have OCD but it gives me an excuse for most of my tendencies. If any of you know me well, you know that in most situations I have two extremes. Perfectionist and I couldn't care less. Most of the things I do will fall along either of those spectrums...rarely in the middle. If I don't really care about something, I will often halfway do it or put it off to the last minute. OR if I am in perfectionist mode, I literally get completely consumed in the task at hand.
I'll start with over the top happiness. Matthew tells me this is when I just start talking and don't stop until my mouth and mind are exhausted (if I ever do this in a conversation with you just understand that I'm enjoying your company). For example, someone could purposefully plow me over in their vehicle and I would pop up and tell them to have a good day, Jesus loves you, and go about my business. And then there is over the top pissiness. This mood most often comes when I deal poorly with unmet expectations. Or to put it even more simply, when I am being selfish and don't get my way. I don't just get upset about the one issue...everything upsets me. I'm best left alone and to myself when this happens so I don't make too big a jerk of myself. Fortunately it's usually only my husband, family, and very close friends that see this mood. And last but not least is, goal setting. I set personal goals to keep myself on task. I usually have to do this so I use my time wisely. The only problem is I get extremely focused, sometimes neglecting the things that need doing but aren't on my schedule.
Ok, so that big long explanation of myself explains what is going on in my life right now. P90X. This is a fitness cuss word! An in your face, six days a week, intense workout regime. The first time I did the core strengthing video my dog thought I was trying to play with her for an hour! My heart rate sky high, sweat pouring off my face, Chloe jumping up and trying to lick the sweat off my face....nothing like a good at home workout! The idea of P90X is muscle confusion, in other words, never hitting a workout plateau. I have set a personal goal to finish this program while lowering my body fat percentage.
The last time I was on a big fitness kick was about four years ago (I wasn't a Christian then), and it was not pretty! I became an in the gym twice a day fitness nazi. I remember my little brother telling Matthew after we started dating, "Wait till Megan gets on a workout kick , she gets intense." I think it's just that I set a personal goal for myself and I won't stop until I reach it. Here's the problem; who and what do I ignore in my quest of reaching personal goals? Does it make me selfish to set personal goals? At what point do the goals we set for ourselves become idols in our lives? I'm not trying to get all legalistic here, I know there is nothing wrong with working out and setting personal goals, but to be honest, I haven't set this type of goal since I became a Christian. I guess I'm just needing some words of wisdom on how to regulate my personal time while holding firm to the teachings of Jesus.
I'll start with over the top happiness. Matthew tells me this is when I just start talking and don't stop until my mouth and mind are exhausted (if I ever do this in a conversation with you just understand that I'm enjoying your company). For example, someone could purposefully plow me over in their vehicle and I would pop up and tell them to have a good day, Jesus loves you, and go about my business. And then there is over the top pissiness. This mood most often comes when I deal poorly with unmet expectations. Or to put it even more simply, when I am being selfish and don't get my way. I don't just get upset about the one issue...everything upsets me. I'm best left alone and to myself when this happens so I don't make too big a jerk of myself. Fortunately it's usually only my husband, family, and very close friends that see this mood. And last but not least is, goal setting. I set personal goals to keep myself on task. I usually have to do this so I use my time wisely. The only problem is I get extremely focused, sometimes neglecting the things that need doing but aren't on my schedule.
Ok, so that big long explanation of myself explains what is going on in my life right now. P90X. This is a fitness cuss word! An in your face, six days a week, intense workout regime. The first time I did the core strengthing video my dog thought I was trying to play with her for an hour! My heart rate sky high, sweat pouring off my face, Chloe jumping up and trying to lick the sweat off my face....nothing like a good at home workout! The idea of P90X is muscle confusion, in other words, never hitting a workout plateau. I have set a personal goal to finish this program while lowering my body fat percentage.
The last time I was on a big fitness kick was about four years ago (I wasn't a Christian then), and it was not pretty! I became an in the gym twice a day fitness nazi. I remember my little brother telling Matthew after we started dating, "Wait till Megan gets on a workout kick , she gets intense." I think it's just that I set a personal goal for myself and I won't stop until I reach it. Here's the problem; who and what do I ignore in my quest of reaching personal goals? Does it make me selfish to set personal goals? At what point do the goals we set for ourselves become idols in our lives? I'm not trying to get all legalistic here, I know there is nothing wrong with working out and setting personal goals, but to be honest, I haven't set this type of goal since I became a Christian. I guess I'm just needing some words of wisdom on how to regulate my personal time while holding firm to the teachings of Jesus.
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